Ayoooooo. Wow it's been 4 months since I last write in here. Well it doesn't matter to be honest, who even cares about blogs nowadays. It's all about them social media apps which I used it too. I know. I'm just trying to keep an update on my life by writing somewhere. It's easier writing it here because none of my friends look through their blogs anyways. I guess it's like myspace? Land of the lost. Hahahaha. Mosquitoes kept nipping on my legs. Prolly it's because I didn't have an afternoon shower yet. Oh well. Well, how is life? After matrics is done,thankfully, I am stuck at home for about 4 months? In the day I slept, at night, i'm awake. Yea, not a good health cycle if you ask me but I do it anyways because old habits die hard. I'm recently kind of emotional too. It's a phase I think. Even now, im listening to sad songs or something that's kind of dark-ish. Like, B.A.P's Badman, BTS's Danger, FT Island's Pray,Big Bang's Haru Haru, Lies, Tell Me Goodbye and a bunch of more sad and dark-ish songs. I swear, Im really gonna bitch slap these mosquitoes to oblivion. I can't even type properly. Oh, I forgot. My matric's results were really bad. Like really really bad man. I don't even know if i'll even get into a university. I usually will rant longer but I can't take these mosquitoes nipping at my skin. I can't concentrate on typing and it will make me lose interest on writing which is actually what's happening now. Hahahaha. Maybe i'll write again later. Toodles~
Make It Happen
Saturday, July 11, 2015
How's Life?
Ayoooooo. Wow it's been 4 months since I last write in here. Well it doesn't matter to be honest, who even cares about blogs nowadays. It's all about them social media apps which I used it too. I know. I'm just trying to keep an update on my life by writing somewhere. It's easier writing it here because none of my friends look through their blogs anyways. I guess it's like myspace? Land of the lost. Hahahaha. Mosquitoes kept nipping on my legs. Prolly it's because I didn't have an afternoon shower yet. Oh well. Well, how is life? After matrics is done,thankfully, I am stuck at home for about 4 months? In the day I slept, at night, i'm awake. Yea, not a good health cycle if you ask me but I do it anyways because old habits die hard. I'm recently kind of emotional too. It's a phase I think. Even now, im listening to sad songs or something that's kind of dark-ish. Like, B.A.P's Badman, BTS's Danger, FT Island's Pray,Big Bang's Haru Haru, Lies, Tell Me Goodbye and a bunch of more sad and dark-ish songs. I swear, Im really gonna bitch slap these mosquitoes to oblivion. I can't even type properly. Oh, I forgot. My matric's results were really bad. Like really really bad man. I don't even know if i'll even get into a university. I usually will rant longer but I can't take these mosquitoes nipping at my skin. I can't concentrate on typing and it will make me lose interest on writing which is actually what's happening now. Hahahaha. Maybe i'll write again later. Toodles~
Saturday, February 28, 2015
Just one little thing
Friday, December 5, 2014
Recent things
Sunday, November 16, 2014
War?
I think I just started a cold war unconsciously or was it she that started it? I don't get it though and I'm confused af. It has that tense atmosphere when I talked to her recently. When I'm talking to her, it seems like she thought that somehow I'm belittling her or something but that's not the case. I didn't and never intended to do so. At times actually, I felt that she was the one that's belittling me or feeling unsatisfied towards me. Also it could be a misunderstanding but her words were so mean to me recently. Like, dude, what on earth did I do? For instance just now, we were talking about this celebrity that she coincidently met. This is how it goes:
Her: Hey I met _______ (Insert name. Sorry couldn't remember his name). Do you know him?
Me: I don't think I know him. Who is he?
Her: Go Google him. You really don't know local artists don't you? (Somehow this hurts, I mean she knew that I don't know local artists) If you're lazy you don't have too.
So since I'm already on the net, the logical thing to do was to search about him so I did. And after that I replied her:
Me: Oh the person from _______(Insert movie)
Her: How did you know? Did you Google it? You cheatedddd XD
Me: Of course I'll have to Google.
Her: Ceih,berlagak macam kenai gilaa. Pi balik la weyy(Idk how to translate this. Lol. Yes that hit right in the feels.)
Me: Mane ade ak berlagak kenai gila ouo
Her: Boooooooooo. You mentioned _____(Insert movie and didn't she asked me to Google it?)
Me: Well he did act in that movie so yea..
Her: Sudah laa. Sila bukak topik baru.
I don't know what I did wrong though. Well another friend of mine had once mentioned about this behaviour of hers but I didn't noticed it at that time. Could it be that I'm influenced by her thoughts although actually she was just fine as she is? I don't know and that's frustrating. We're now having this silent war with each other and its unbearable *sighs*
Somebody Please Punch Me
I just realize what kind of person I am. Well at least I noticed one thing about myself. (As I'm writing this I'm listening and watching Got7's Around The World music video. Them boys are hot.) I noticed that I'm the type of person who likes to do a lot of things but in the end nothing was done. For example, like today I wanted to learn Korean and it was doing well but then I remembered about my goal to master at least one dance before semester break is over so I close that tab and search for Teen Top's dance practice Missing. After learning for a bit, I remembered about my other goal, to at least write another chapter for my fanfic so yeah you guess it. I closed that dance tab and opened my fanfic tab. I wrote for a little bit then I realized that I wanted to learn the dance but I wanted to write too and also learn Korean and at that time I remembered my goal to refresh on my piano skills. Do you know how hard it is being me? Why am I even doing this to myself? *chairslaps self*
Friday, November 14, 2014
Thoughts?
Hello? Get ready I'm about to write some useless junk in here. Lemme see, where shall I start? Well, I just completed my first semester in KMPP. That's actually an achievement, I didn't know I could even last a semester there. Ya'know, I had bad memories there on the first few semester but it's all good now which is quite surprising. For all these years, for me I think I'm one of the weakest people among the people around me. I was afraid that I couldn't adapt. I was afraid of not being accepted. I was afraid of being judged. I was practically afraid of everything that's coming. So what was the solution to this problem? Pretending. Pretend that everything was okay. That is actually one of my talents. A lot of people never noticed even my parents. They could have suspected something but I'm a professional so it just goes under their radar. I remember all those times. Now that I think about it, how pitiful am I? Crying just because I couldn't adapt? Crying just because I'm not accepted? Crying just because I'm being judged? What was I thinking back then? I was definitely not matured yet back then nor am I sure if I am now. I did asked my dad once though. I asked him 'Dad, how do we know if we're already matured?' 'If you already have a career and a planned future in mind then that just shows how matured you are. It also depends on the person themselves.' It wasn't his exact words but it is somehow familiar to that. Dad didn't even think or paused when he answered me, that's just how amazing my dad is. Have I matured? I'm not quite sure. I could have but then on the other hand maybe not. I could write a bunch of other stuff more but I think I should just end it here so yeah till next time.
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Home
Home is a place where I can be myself and I can pretty much do everything here. As much as I want to do everything in this so call home,well I dont. I thought after SPM I can finally do everything that I had ever wanted,well it's not as easy as it sounds. I did do a few productive things for the first few weeks then well it just wont work for me anymore. Apparently I just realize im that much of a lazy ass to do anything or get anything done after those few weeks. I'm not what u call a morning riser anymore. Usually ill be up at around 12 max but now well it's 2:30 max. Well isn't this wonderful? I dont exactly know what happen to me after those few weeks. It's like someone injected a lazy ass shot in me. Well i'm hoping for the best here. I really hope I change my ways but then again,knowing it's me. This is going to take a while. Well then,toodlezz